Mulling things over

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Christmas is coming. The trees will soon be up and glittering in the small alley I walk to work every day.

I have taken a break from blogging to mull things over. Not blogging so much as life itself, but I have noticed that a few of my fave bloggers has left and are now just doing Instagram or youtube. Will I do the same? Nope. To me words will surpass photos any days, at least the kind of photos that seem to invade Instagram. I just think you would get bored watching my face over and over and over…

So. By mulling things over I have come to the conclusion that its time to think about leaving the workplace. I have not decided yet, but it looks like I will do so in a year or two.

Why? Well, recently I have found that I just feel tired. I still think I do a decent job, but my job is not my life. And I have no energy left at the end of the day to do things that makes me happy, or at least leave me with a sense of accomplishment.

I also realize that people are starting to die around me, some younger and some older, but life is not going to last forever. My feet and knees have been worse recently from my arthritis, and I understand that I cannot rely on my health all the time. And there are things I really want to do. So with that said and combined with the energy-lack, I think its time to start planning for another life.

In the next year you will see more posts about this, because honestly – it does take some planning and mental re-evaluation. I’m a bit of a shopaholic and my retirement-budget does not allow that. I love to travel and I want to have enough to be able to make 3-4 trips a year as long as I am healthy enough. And I realize that I have to find a new apartment, because my inner-city pad is way to expensive. There will be sacrifices.

But I also look forward to this new part of my life, and I am excited to start. A bit impatient too, to be honest!

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My hair is now the natural grey I will have to learn to live with. I like it. I might have wished for a perfect silver, but the dark grey/silver is good with my eyes. I’m contemplating letting it grow out now the color is gone…What do you think?

I have to say going grey was easier than I imagined, it took 6 months with my short hair. But if I had kept the length it would’ve taken at least a year. So I’m happy I cut it. I also save a lot on my hair-dressers bill!

I still find it hard to do my makeup with the new hairstyle and color. That is a work in progress and to be continued as one of my projects for 2019, as well as my wardrobe. Recently I have bought a bit more, but more planned items and I keep to my color palette  and I find it very calming to be able to mix and match everything.

4 thoughts on “Mulling things over

  1. I love your hair – there is a lovely range of grey throughout it so I think going grey was absolutely perfect for you, it really suits. I did find leaving behind the hair dye made me re-evaluate everything, the colours I thought suited me – didn’t. I think I can behonest about that now. In turn, it made me rethink a lot of my identity, do I care about my job – yes, do I love it – no, does it make me feel happy/acheiving/complete – hell no… but I need the money so I continue at it, but it isn’t where my heart is and I am learning to step back a little – they get significantly more than what they pay me/our team for so I don’t feel bad. Maybe I will drop a day a week or some hours, but I will take my time to think about this – as I do think it is better to do this while there is quality of life to be had like you suggest.

    I did find that I wear MORE make up now – partly to colour myself in and partly to protect my skin but mainly as I finally thought “stuff it” I like make up and I felt that I can do whatever the heck I want so enjoying make up was something I have embraced. Go to a make up counter and get a demonstration (go to several and see what you like), there are also loads of you tube videos out there for us older women 🙂

    • Thanks for commenting Juliet! Yes, I think its important to let things take the time needed, its a process. But I also think that at some point you have to take a leap of faith and maybe it turns out its pretty good on the other side? But there are still some things to consider and decisions to make before I actually make the decision to leave. As for the makeup – I do think I use more make-up these days as well, but I still advent found any videos I really like. This is Scandinavia, and too much makeup is considered tacky, so its a balancing act (at least at work).

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