Some thoughts after Christmas

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There is something called Christmas Spirit. They talk about it in those Hallmark Christmas movies that I binge on the weeks before the holidays. But I’m not sure what it means really.

Is it the urge to run to the shops to buy a lot of gifts to prove you love someone? Or is it a religious thing? Or just the crazy time until you can actually relax? Or the relaxation? Or spreading lights like that balcony I saw from my bus stop the other night.  I guess it means different things to different people.

I´m not crazy about Christmas. In my childhood Christmases were tainted with my mothers tantrums and stress-filled arguments, and when I was 25 I just decided I had had enough of it. After that I have celebrated Christmas on my own terms, but very rarely alone. This year it is just with son, but we had a lovely holiday. I hope you had too!

I´m not big on decorating for Christmas, but a tree is a must! A natural one that is. And lights! I live in a country that is embraced by darkness six months of the year, so the lighted trees and balconies gives a bit of solace. Thankfully it will slowly, slowly get better after the 21st of December.

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There are Xmas trees and then there are Christmas trees! This one is down by the water in Old Town and I pass it on my way to work. I’m not sure I’m keen on the bright lights, but the shape of this tree is to die for. However I saw when they assembled it, its like an Extreme Makeover X-mas tree! Put together branch by branch. This time in my life I prefer the simple and natural:)

Celebrating on my own terms include a very non-traditional dinner on the 24th with turkey and sticky toffee pudding. In Sweden we usually eat smörgåsbord at Christmas, but son and I decided a few years back to go turkey. He has traditional food at his father’s house on Christmas Day, and I usually have a julbord with work. This year, at my new job, it was all-in-seafood, but I don’t mind. I am always willing to stuff myself with lobster!!!

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I loved this display of lights in Lund, south of Sweden, where I had to go for work before the holidays. It was like a fountain of lights, moving like water. 

Weeks prior to the holidays have been really hectic with some traveling and hard negotiations (thats my line of work). But I have felt more serene and content nevertheless. Somehow I think I have made some decisions that I am comfortable with and I look forward to 2019. The world is crazy in so many ways right now, but I feel more grounded than I have in a long time.

Simplicity, mindfulness and focus will be my keywords for 2019. I am still down-sizing my wardrobe, and even if I buy new things I get rid of the old ones. I prefer to pass things on instead of throwing away, and will also donate some. That goes for anything in my home as well. Do I really need three sets of plates?

I will continue to look for a smaller place to live in, but I will not rush. I will eat healthier – vegetarian and asian food is my inspiration at the moment, and take up my exercise regime again. And I will stream-line my budget in 2019, as I prepare for a lower income in 2020.

But I will travel. I didn’t go anywhere in 2018, but I already have two trips planned in 2019. Its not climate-friendly and I am a bit hesitant, but I hope I’m making up for it in other ways in my life – no car, no waste, less consumerism. I have to be honest though – some personal choices will always clash with what’s best for the world. And I’m not ready to give up traveling. I want to see the world while its still possible. I guess I’m not a saint, but I did get a pretty calendar and a pair of slippers from Santa, so I cannot be all bad either!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

 

Mulling things over

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Christmas is coming. The trees will soon be up and glittering in the small alley I walk to work every day.

I have taken a break from blogging to mull things over. Not blogging so much as life itself, but I have noticed that a few of my fave bloggers has left and are now just doing Instagram or youtube. Will I do the same? Nope. To me words will surpass photos any days, at least the kind of photos that seem to invade Instagram. I just think you would get bored watching my face over and over and over…

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